I find New Year’s Resolutions tiring. In my opinion, most resolutions feel like envy in disguise.

What do I need to do in order to be more like someone else or the picture of me that I want?

I want to lose 20 pounds. I want to quit drinking, etc.

Why do you want those things?

Perhaps the better answer lies after thinking longer about that question.

Why does it have to start at the turn of the year?

At the cabin, we all said our New Year’s resolutions. I gave a bullshit answer.

“Instead of looking for purpose, I want to start finding it”

It is bullshit because I do not know if it accomplishable. It helped me skirt the question.

I have most of the material things that I want.

I cannot truthfully answer what my resolution should be because I have been trying for the past two years to find reasons for my why. I find it incredibly difficult to answer.

My best assumption is that is has been staring me in the face. Probably always has been and always will be.